Sunday, March 18, 2012

My Journey through Infertility

I am going to do something different this week.  There are a lot of women that suffer from infertility and I am one of those women.  This is my story and journey throught it all.  I have Polycystic ovary syndrome. 
Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is one of the most common female endocrine disorders. PCOS is a complex, heterogeneous disorder of uncertain etiology, but there is strong evidence that it can to a large degree be classified as a genetic disease.[1][2][3]
PCOS produces symptoms in approximately 5% to 10% of women of reproductive age (12–45 years old). It is thought to be one of the leading causes of female subfertility[4][5][6] and the most frequent endocrine problem in women of reproductive age.[7]
The principal features are anovulation, resulting in irregular menstruation, amenorrhea, ovulation-related infertility, and polycystic ovaries; excessive amounts or effects of androgenic (masculinizing) hormones, resulting in acne and hirsutism; and insulin resistance, often associated with obesity, Type 2 diabetes, and high cholesterol levels. The symptoms and severity of the syndrome vary greatly among affected women.

I know it is a mouthful.  When I was diagnosed with PCOS I noticed hair growing on my chin and upper lip.  I thought what is wrong with me why I am not a man.  But it was not me it was the PCOS.  I went from a size 6 to a size 14 in two months.  I have a hard time loosing the weight.  So far I am not a diabetic.  My cholesterol levels are normal.  The symptons that I have are obesity, androgenic, anovulation, and amenorrhea.  I have finally come to terms with this syndrome. 

March of 2010 I started my first round of clomid.  Clomid is a fertility drug.  I went and got my blood work done and I was not pregnant.  I was heart broken.  All my friends were getting pregnant and I was not.  April I did another round of clomid still not good news.  I was angry at myself.  I felt like I had let my husband down and my family.  I felt like a bad wife because I could not give my husband a child.  I even blamed God.  I was getting ready to do my third round of clomid and I broke down and said God I am sorry for blaming you.  I can not carry this burden anymore.  And so I gave it all to him.  It was June 4th 2010 I went in that morning to get my blood work done.  That afternoon I was coming home from Natchitoches Louisiana when I got the call from the nurse.  I did not get my hopes up at all.  She said Abby I got your blood work back and I thought I can handle this I can take it.  She said it is positive.  I was in shock.  I said does this mean that I am pregnant?  She said yes 4 weeks.  I screamed and cried because it was the happiest moment in my life. 

The months rolled by and we found out on September 18th 2010 that we were having a girl.  Sofi Clair Lewis.  I was so happy.  Then the day finally arrived February 10th 2011.  I was in labor for 91/2 hours.  I pushed for one hour and nothing was happening.  So they took me to surgery and at 6:32 p.m. Sofi Clair had made her enterance into this world.


When the nurse handed her to me, I looked at her and said hi Sofi Clair I am your mommy and I have been waiting on you for a long time.  The best thing was she was all mine and no body could take that away from me.  She is 13 months and she is my world I love her so much.  I never thought I could love someone this much.  It is truly the best feeling in the world.  I have been so blessed to watch her grow everyday.  I would not give anything in the world for this past year.  She is truly my miracle.




4 comments:

  1. Abby you are very blessed. I do not know the feeling of what you are going through, but you are very blessed to have that little girl. I have a friend that is 32 now, but when she was 21 she found out that she would never be able to have kids. She ended up have a total historectamy. She was heartbroken. I wish you the best of luck in the future, if you decide to try for more. You have a precious little girl too.

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  2. I know that you were devastated to be diagnosis with this syndrome. But you were blessed with a beautiful baby girl. That really is a blessing.

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  3. That was a very interesting and inspiring bog. I am sorry that you had to go through all of that to have a child, but my heart goes out to you for not giving up and accomplishing your goal. And God may be just, but is inderstanding of our shortcomings when we blame him.

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  4. Abby, I find your post interesting, but they are difficult to read because of the format. I don't think the narrow frame, and the large font are very appealing to the reader. Why don't you work on changing that up next week? Please let at some other blogs, not only fellow students, but some blogs that are not related to our class and get some ideas on a different format that is more appealing. You have great potential and are obviously very smart. I just want to see you do your best.

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